Thursday, December 22, 2011

I know this is worth reading

How many stuffed animals do you own?
can i say not too many?i actually googled for this question

Favorite book?
new book i guess..

How much money do you currently have on you?
5o cent.. :(

Is there something you wish was different?
yeah..i wish i had made a wise decision 'cause i didnt

To you, what amount of questions does a survey have to have to be long?
100 is just too much for me. haha

Mini skirts, jeans or both?
jeans! or mini jeans.. ;) hahaha

Are you good at come backs? whats that supposed to mean?

When's the last time you watched the news?
just now.
Do you love Christmas time?
i wish i do
Can you skateboard?
hell no

Do you always have someone who has your back?
who has your back? urmm what?hahahah

Do you really think that the number 13 is unlucky?

Personality or looks?
both.okay..both are important..are u talking about which is important? -_-

What's your favorite flavor of cough drops?

Do you ever dance around your room when your by yourself?
one of the best thing in life.yeah of course!

What is the time?

Do you hate the cold?
who doesnt?

How long can you hold your breath for?
1minutes++ :D

What's something you seem to run out of often?

19.1.19 94

Do you like double digit numbers? (EX: 22)
err yeaa.. ?

Do you have a fan in your room?
:) im bored

Do you think that there really is someone out there for all of us?
certainly. Allah said so...
Cakes, brownies or pies?

Do you like skinny jeans?
i only wear skinny jeans.. *cough
Do you think Cookie Monster is cute?

Do you like candy canes?
i fuck it a lot
Do you ever wish you were a bird?

What do you think of Lady Gaga?
she looks like miz nina

Have you ever had a dream where you killed someone?
...yeah.lucid dream
Which is better: Hot boys/girls or food?
food. what can u do with hot boys/girls??! u cant eat them
or even rape them.cause they no like haha

Do you ever wish on your eye lashes?
once. only once...and it was.stupid!
When's the last time you did a push up?
1 month ago

Do you know what 143 stands for?
i love u. right?

Do you ever make up stories in your head and wish they come true?

Has anyone ever told you that you were amazing?
anyone? hey everyone says that.. >.>

Diet pop/soda or regular?
regular is awesome

Do you have to listen to music to fall asleep?

Do you look at people in the eyes when you talk to them?
when im telling them the truths or lies, haha motive?!

Are you good at running?
damn good

Which is worse: stuffy nose or runny nose?
s t u f f y

Which is worse: Sick to your stomach or sore throat?
What's your favorite smiley face?

Does anyone take your breath away?
YEAHH @..@
Do you know who Greyson Chance is?
yea. i hate him much. y u no look like a boy?!
Are you really happy with your life?
alhamdulillah..i love my life a lot, even i only have 50cent in my purse and waiting for spm's result. it sucks but however my life is pretty much awesome. my life would be perfect if my last wish is fulfilled.

I am stronger than my words :p

Today at 6

Afiq "heyyy!!!! patrick is in my plate!"
Me "Oi tu bunga cengkih -.- patrick tapak sulaiman"
Ibu "Bunga cengkih? kau tahu tu apa? haha"
Me "patrick starfruit kan ?"
Ibu " -..-

Haih. random

Monday, December 12, 2011

Sekolah Men 1.2.5

Snow hei oh :P

whats interesting bout this school? -sab-?
ok, i was suprised. so suprised! hahhahaha merepek

i was suprised by the students there, nampaknye lebih nerd berbanding semesta alolol
not all,but what is seen..
tapi nampak je nerd. nampak je. hahahah i was kind of SUPRISED when they simply *membantah homework,teachers,etc. wuoaw and the teachers will just smile and..okay! TAPI lagi, yang kenotstan nye, result exam, pergh. gempak.

mine? ok-ok.
what can be inferred, the less the person is seen with a book, the better the result T_T
tapi kan, tak jugak. rajin pun gempak.

my life being sabian was as simple and easy as abc!!
less task,less thing to do, and no responsibility to any-thing'
boleh kate agak bosan.

Bila bosan tu,mulalah rindu semesta. ^___^
tapi bersyukur jugak hehe. adalah sebabnya.
bukan tu saje, rindu jugak bila result exam sangat teruk haih hahhaha

i miss sab too. fuh

Sekolah Men 1.0

Theres nothing much to say bout my so called 1.0 school- semesta, and im not good in writing :(

omg harap sangat my english(essay) spm will be ok ^,^~
(duh tetibe je)
ya allah! and hey please pray for me :*

haha. actually there are so many things to say lah! but i really dont know how to write it down..
kenapa 1.0?
i didnt failed tau, though my last exam there i failed at getting the top1 :( haha padanlah muka!

ok, sebelum masuk ke semesta,
i was basically observing the school's website...and macam dah 2 tahun tak update -.-
tak lupa untuk menggoogle gambar sekolah tu, haih. macam dah search 'ladang kelapa sawit'
gambar kelas semua hitam putih..wujud lagi ke tak sekolah ni?
BUTT i didnt care, i was very excited! i love hostel life!! -based on what i saw, my sister had a great life kat mrsm. sampai kalau boleh takmau balik rumah... nak jugak ^_^

and yeah, at the moment i saw the school for the veghi firsst time,i fell in...and speechless. omg nak balik! kenapa besar sangat? and ..lapang? Pokok macam tak berape nak ada, rumput pulak semua kuning?
why? :P

First day at school was awesome :) and the next day, next two month ,third month, fifth...and the next year! haha! till now i dont know what the actual reason that force me to shift school walalala haha.. i know la...i wuz juz fuckin kiddin you!
first year was ok, no homesicknessss, ibu ayah pun tak pernah melawat pun ^,^ hebat.
second year wasnt bad, tapi macam agak2 kadang2 sekali sekala selalu ter homesick...ftw.. but still, ibu ayah memang tak lawat sangat. sebab homesick? too many problems. 0,O ahaha

Ok dah taktau nk cakapa. haha,
ni sedikit nk share my 2008th journal/diary. walao!
sebenarnya satu buku ni dah pernah dibaca, sebab selalu tertinggal dlm kelas :(

yang ni yana yang conteng

*susahkan nak bace.. :P
Yg sensored tu memang dangerous k, harap maklum hahaha

hahah ok bye!

Saturday, December 3, 2011


Thursday, August 18, 2011



Saturday, July 23, 2011

Patriotic monkey!

hey.this is just a random post! showing u one of my tweet that has been retweeted more than twice.hahaha so proud of my self :p

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

I was me

I miss the old me- academically?
how i used to study, serious and harder than ever, and i think i'm no longer like that

when i was a form 1 kid (everyone said i look mature ok hahaha), two weeks before the exam or tesst, i was like, staying up late till 4 am to study...introduction to science...zaman prasejarah...limpahan darah di sungai ssemur? blabla lol
just cause i didnt know how a secondary school's exam's format will look like,
so yeah. i studied macam nak gila

i brought my notes everywhere, sampai ke surau, masa tunggu azan tu boleh study lagi kan and till one day senior nak study dalam surau tak boleh kot -.- everyone else was like, lepak2 not studying termasuklah form5 semua. and they were like 'waaaah alyaaaaa rajin!' and orang lain could find my notes anywhere cause selalu lah tertinggal. fak poyo bunyinyerrrr hhaha

sampai lah the first exam's result was out, yeaaaaahhhh dapat no1 dalam batch doh! po plat, straight a's hahahahahahaha i was very happy :') and stressed :( sebab nak kena maintain. lololll
sekarang, i keep thinking how can i be like used to be. . .

Friday, June 24, 2011


Okay. i just launched my first blogshop!!! ceh.haha
So tired posting so many things and photos :( plus doing the promo

All the items are my collection, most of it are new
and im selling those at a freaking low price!!!! no profit pun and i just wanna clear up my wardrobe which is gonna explode soon LOL aah please help me?

Shop-mate (click la haa)

Wednesday, June 15, 2011


I cannnnnnnt sleep

By the way :P tadi member lame call,sape lagi. Semesta ria n lah haha
Dalam satu mase cakap dgn lebih 5 orang.tatau dah cakap dgn sape ceh rase hot

Dorang ni as usuaaal lah,call sebab birthday. But i'm so sorry, aku betul2 tak ingat sape tuan punye no tadi :O yelah, dah le boys and dorang bkn geng aku kat semesta dulu. Puak lain. LOL

Yang aku ingat buyet, aizat, cipo (jangan jelles nida) and lain2 tak ingat muka :P so sorry. Mcm tak sangke jgk buyet 'musuh' aku no1 dulu boleh ckp elok2 tadi.mcm nak nangis rase

Awkward gila sebab dorang cakap banyak gila tapi aku mcm haaa..ok. Sebab busy dok ingat yang mane satu yang dok cakap tu.but thanks la sebab still remembr me huahuahaha of coz ar en haahahaha

There's no point pun cite ni haha cume, sentap sikit bila dorang kate RUGI gila kau pindah lya. Bkn ape tapi mcm ek eleh haha
dan2 pulak dok ungkit kisah lame aku.hmm sobss hahaha

Paling tak tahan sebok dok cite perkembangan terbaru semesta yang mcm aku nak tau sangat tu. Sape yg kene buang la,tender dema baru la,rase mcm kat U la,haha tapi yang paling best, auto light off! Tafak.

Sedih jgk la sebab aku tak ingat sangat tuan punye no tu sape. Haha sorry :P tapi rase ''happy'' sebab dorang lawak gilew hahaha sumpah menggedik sial

Rindu pulek o.O

Sunday, May 29, 2011



Not much a poet

I thought we can spend more time together. though we're not standing next to each other, but at least. i can hear more from u. more besides a single phone call. and though, we're just texting bout all the simple things we talk bout everyday. but at least, u're doing something for me.
It's not like u're not doin anything for me, u know right. something more

I may sound so ungrateful. but this actually is reaaaaally making me sad. i'm sad because u didnt tell me this earlier and i know why :( i'm sad because u're so far awaaaaay from me when i need u so much. u know it and now its a schooool break before everything runs wild. im so sad that i cant be with u for that freaking days. do u ever think about this?

Its not ur fault. its me who think too much. forgive me, im making this so much complicated :(
i want u to be happy and i hope u're! i'm so fine

Saturday, May 28, 2011

The normal me

I'm emo. thats the normal me. i dont know if it is the right word.i hate it so much hahaha :(
macam budak emo pulak.wei not like that! i mean, i'm too emosional, sensitive and randomly weird.
I still remember when my sis went to...emmm.asrama la, i was extra-ordinary-ly sad. i was like, crying a week before she go and a month after. everytime la. i wasnt tired. haha and dia pulak like, never cared bout me like i'm not existed and my fav song this time was, Gugurnya bunga cinta. wtf physco gila aku dgn kakak sendiri. she never kno bout this till she read this post haha
but when i'm getting older,ceh. this is not so obvious dah cause ive been taught to hide the tears and sadnesnes. lol and no one ever taught me pun
and this is not only happening when people leave me :/ also when i leave haha
and and this is still happening now. i dont know when all this will end!
before my sis go to asrama, my parents were always outstation bagai pi sana sini, then i went to asrama, then a year break no one go anywhere. now my bf pulak.emm emmh (kecoh kecoh)

sounds weird? funny? hey i'm sad with all this la. maybe cause i think too much,worried too much and loveeee. uuuuuuoh

correct my grammar miss mas

Friday, May 27, 2011

Schools break

Hey.its a school break. homeworks done. ftw! yeah team work basis
not excited.its just a break.or a sign or a new start.lets not hope

Friday, May 6, 2011


My previous post sounds so emo.i hate it
Um thats all for May
hahahaha entah

Saturday, April 9, 2011


I felt was empty, nothing. i'm so dissapointed and it's not because of the nothingness but it's because of you. i dont know what the actual fuck is my purpose being here. what do you want from me? i'm tired of everything
y u no listen to me?

Friday, April 1, 2011

What's on my mind

You can find me cursing or put the 'fucking' word in front of everywhere or any words but that doesnt always like what you think and i'm not tryna be cool.i dont understand why that kind of people think that kind of way that is kind of kind of..

i dont know what actually 'woot-woot' meant
i never asked

i dont really like it when people use/type/write by the way in short form 'btw' hahaha *currently

raandom thing i want.harhar

Wednesday, March 30, 2011


Does it bother you if the shower nozzle thing isn't straight?
*yerrr! em not jelly haha

Do you agree with the title?

Have you ever had something important taken away from you in an instant?

Did you say yes referring to a person? ^^
*lol yeahhh haha

Are you obsessed with scarves?

Don't you just love wearing your boyfriends sweatshirt?
*i dunow :o

Your best friend is going to die in an hour, what would you do?
*no..she's not going to die :P

If one of your friends is crying, do you start crying?
*hmm always ee
Are you sick at the moment?

Tell me, have you ever been in lovee? <3
*yes :O
Your ex calls you up. Surprised or not?
*suprised to death

Where are you right now?
*my room
Do you believe that love is the strongest thing ever?

How's life?
*getting harder
Do shy guys attract you?
*depends haha

Ever made the mistake of trusting a guy with your life?
*hmmmmm o.O

Do you have a box where you keep all your things you want to remember?
Do you feel bad for those kids who are just so annoying but cant help it?

Have a boyfriend?
* ^.^
You're sad. Who do you turn to?
* bf? friends? :)

Ever been SOOO tired, but you just couldn't fall asleep?

Do any sports?
* boleha haha
Tell me a random fact about yourself to end it :
* everything you can do, i can do better


Ini memang tahap taktau nak post ape.tak kisah la ape korang fikir tapi memang mcm ni lah.hahahaha
yanaa, cepat la balik, aku nak kate2 semangat dari kau :O hehe

Monday, March 7, 2011


My hair was thicker than jessica biel's few years ago :O
now egh my hair is sooo thin! i hatee laaahhh feel like orang asli (dyed my hair)
dulu i likee thin hair,dunno la who the hex that influenced me. i always go to salon n ask the styliist to make my hair as thiin as..entah
and the stylist said aiyoooo amoi ur hair so thick la why u wannt to make it nipis?

I olso always cut my hair on my own when i think its gettin bodoh gila aku
and i like to cabut any hair that bengkok2 hingga ke akar and and felt satisfied to the max
dont know whyyyy T___T
plus alwayssss gaduh dengan adik2 tarik2 rambut bagai nak rak
and dyed and perm and so on
nowwwwwwwww my hairrr so nipis melepek kat kepalaaa.benciiii

what to do now?

Thursday, March 3, 2011


Yeeeeer tired :/
homework melambaks n rajin buat essay je
essay je

Sekolah ni.baru bulan january indeks dah 3 helai m/s
nak mencapai ape..? KPI SBT? wtf
english punye indeks pulak satu helai m/s satu hari.bapakkk sikit
buku pulak satu subjek dah almost 10 buah
baru beli 4 each subject.banyaaak buat kat testpad je :( hahahhaaha like a boss

Taktau lah ape dah jadi malas amat padahal spm year :(
banyak sembang banyak menung
ingat dulu mase form1.test1 je dah stay up sampai pukul 4 pagi
sekarang stay smpai 5 petang pun taboleh

Esok skip sekolah
next week penilaian satu
lusa sekolah
pada hari sabtu


Friday, February 25, 2011

Saturday, February 19, 2011


ARAP as random as possible -.-

K HYE.just wanna list out my random problemss interest in study tho ive nothing to do with it
three.keep refreshing wtf
four.desires to many freaking awesome things that will destroyed my life.later

this is bella.bella-reader.reader-bella(?) haha n thats my sejarahs buulk

Friday, February 4, 2011

(',' )

I dont mind if im the one who lebih2
I miss having friendship issues
I miss throwing ur stuff when im emo
I miss listening to u humming ur fav song which i dont like
I miss talking to u when u sleep
I miss laughing out loud when u're sad
I miss saying u bodoh 24/7
I miss u using my money
I miss looking at ur fake hair
I miss eating ur food
I miss eating ur food
I miss eating ur food
I miss u nida n i hate being so ordinary like bffsbff♥fuckof#@@#%fhaha

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

If she's not mistaken

Thought i'll get everything i wan
X mistake
Some people outhhere hav every-thing

Talk like everyone can understand
X mistake
My voice too slow i dont wanna shout

Mum hates me too much
X mistake
I dont know the truth

Its ok to live without bestfriend
X mistake
My bestfriends have their own besfriendsff

Thought i close enuf with u dat u will tell me evrything
X mistake
Im not dat close

Im emo
X mistake
Easily burst to tears

X mistake
Trynna be more thankful

Twitter addiction
X mistake
Only speak my mind to niga

I cant stop rebuting n alwiz wanna win
X mistake
Was born like dis

Im boring type people
X mistake
Coz im bored

I wait
X mistake
I stick

X mistake
U dont like me

X mistake
U dont know me

X mistake
X rich

X mistake

Showing off
X mistake
Telling the truth

U kno me
X mistake
U no me

Sunday, January 30, 2011


Shout out 2 Show Off

Nida, please return my vans since all da kiddies nowadays crazy are about it
cant believe it i gave it to you! i think u already lost it

Today im going to buy something very expensive!

Friday, January 28, 2011


Have deleted my previous post bout yana
annoyed me cause too long
and can cause a lotttta trouble

haoever, i can still remember what she did on my birthday :)
thanks! u're my bestfriend yana :P
she says i love you to me like she really really does,hahhaha,always k
like aku sayang kau gile gila gile liya
and i always like awww so sweet doh yana.bongok la kau
donno y i alwaysways say bongok to those i love

nothing beat human touch! :P

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Just saying

Today : for the first time, dengan kerelaan hati yang penuh ikhlas i went to debate meeting
i hate meeting, especially that related to debate

i can still remember this very clearly ; when i 'live' in semesta, im one of da very bad lazy ass debater. cuz i used to feel like screaming n crying when ' oi kejap lagi ade meeting'
im not a good debater, cuz i dont talk seriously, i mean, i talk playfully :p
im not a good speaker, no way im gonna be the best speaker
emm, english debate k, bahas is complicated like hell

walaupun i went to hk (sbp national debate level) to represent school, it wus nothing actually
cuz i was like, so young n stupid (form 2)
im writing this cuz my friends (yana/adie/nida) mesti terkejut ( kot la)
i want them to kno i went to debate meeting without them forcing n pushing me

dats all,
i'm malaysian, i speak rojak :P

Tuesday, January 11, 2011


The truth about me and my nameee, self decribe

A - Antagonist
L - Lovely :P
Y - Yank
A - Amazing! of course i am amazingly amazing
A - Abhorrent

S - Simply simple sarcastic .lmauo
Y - Yummy :P
A - Abominable
H - Hungry
I - Impatient
R - Rude
A - Alive
H - Hacker